This is a tribute to the nice guys...

The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.
-Rob L. and Justin back in the day-

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they’re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don’t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.
-Isaias, I miss you!-

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you’d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn’t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing “serious” between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: “oh, but we’re just friends!” And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways.
-Joe Unit, gotta love it-

Because you’re nice like that.

Found that in one of the journals I was looking through the other day. Reminds me alot of the close guy friends I have. Wish there were more like that, but most tend to fall into the category of inconsiderate and self absorbed. But those of you who aren't, thanx for always being there.

things just get so crazy

living life gets hard to do

and i would gladly hit the road

get up and go if i knew

that one day it would lead me back to you

ok game time... saw this on another xanga and i'm a theif... only because i don't remember who's site it was on in order for me to honor them with credit... so.
btw can you tell i'm overly tired?

name the following songs from my playlist without using google... cheaters! when someone guesses correctly i'll list the correct title and artist. minus the original crossing out part cuz i can't remember the proper html to do it. it's been awhile... k

1. something your eyes never told me, but it's only now too plain to see. brilliant disguise when you hold me... Light in your eyes by blessid union of souls

2. she's decieving me. cuts my security. and she's got control of me. i turn to her and say...

3. sometimes i give into sadness. sometimes i don't. at times i'm part of the madness. sometimes i won't, give into you. everything by fefe dobson

4. people make mistakes to make up, to break up, to wake up cold and lonely. chill baby you know me.

5. when your secret heart cannot speak so easily, come here baby from a whisper...

6. your love is like religion, a cross in mexico. and your kiss is like the innocense of a prayer nailed to a door.

7. and i don't want you to feel sorry for me. you never gave us a chance to be. and i don't need you to be by my side... running away by hoobastank

8. how i dream to finally say such things that only two pretend.

9. you had enough. you wonder why. even now your body cries... powder by yellowcard

10. perfumed and smoky she swears that she knows me...

wow...
<< i've always liked this icon or whatnot cuz i love sugarcult.... and then i realized, finally, that the "s" and "c" are highlighted... because of the band's name. can we say slow?  guess i never noticed.

savanna and kristen stayed the night. we went to wal-mart and made fools of ourselves as usual, rampaging the store and buying a lot junk food. we have more than an abundance. then we got back to the house and fell asleep watching "my best friend's wedding". love that movie.

my only day off this week and i'm up at 8 in the morning... jees. taking kristen to the doctor's. then to work. then i have to go to the doctors. then pick up my check from work and do all those fun errands. i have to find time for homework some time today. oh joy. we'll all probably go out and do something tonight since we don't work.

til then i'm bored...

I Want: a million dollars. ha...
I Have: too much on my mind the majority of the time
I Wish: i could stop making things so complicated in my life. think simplicity!!!
I Hate: too many things to list them here. but if you know me, you know what i hate.
I Miss: my mom... thank god for vaca the end of march. Florida!!!
I Fear: being alone in all aspects of my life
I Hear: let me go by 3 doors down
I Wonder: if there's someone out there for me
I Love: laughing
I Always: have a song stuck in my head
I Am Not: the same person i was a year ago
I Dance: even though i'm not that good at it.
I Sing: even though i'm not that good at that either. lol
I Cry: surprisingly...not as often as i used to, which use to be about everything
I Am Not Always: self-confident
I Win: when i play mario cart. bring it bitches!!!
I Lose: my cell phone all the time
I Confuse: myself... and everyone around me generally
I Need: someone to be there for me unconditionally
I Should: stop over thinking things
What makes me happy: how my life is for now...

"In this world there's real and make believe... this seems real to me..."

well it's snowing outside. yay. would be fun if i didn't have to work today. could have gone sledding or something. so much for that. last night was pretty rockin'. started off with me and kristen heading to stop & shop to pick up some groceries... then my lame attempt to cook dinner. just a bad reminder that who ever i plan on being with for the rest of my life better know how to cook or we're gonna be eating out all the time. lol. then we rented some movies and stuffed our faces at savanna's for the night. minus the boys again.

talked to matt for the first time in ages. guess he's doing well. he won tickets to see slipknot when he was at hooters for the race yesterday or something. lol. what a dork.

i can't wait til vacation. me and kristen are nearly counting down the days and are already getting shit ready to go, talk about anticipation. i'm just needing it, the change of pace.

isaias is leaving to go back to oregon this week. [tear] we're gonna miss him at work. it's just not gonna be the same.

and i know i've done the right thing for myself...
"I dream ahead to what I hope for and I turn my back on loving you..."

wow... can you say it's been awhile?

lots has changed... naturally. and i'm not really in the mood, nor do i have time, to sit here and account for each significant difference in my life, at the moment, compared to how it was just six months ago. but i can honestly say that i feel how things are now is how it's suppose to be. i'm doing my thing... having fun... spending time with the people who mean the most to me in life... and chillen with a few new ones. i work most of the time and go to school part of the time. i feel balanced for once... and a lifted weight i never knew existed has been taken off my shoulders. i guess i feel free... and selfish in a lot of ways, but i'm aloud to be now.

i've been trying to exclude complicated situations from my life right now. i want what's simple and sometimes that's difficult for me to grasp because i always over-analyze everything in my life... to the point where i'm even more confused than i was in the beginning. lol. so i've taken the road less traveled this time. i'm trying to keep things simple for once and hopefully this path will lead me in the right direction.

3.22-3.29  me, kristen, and noel are heading to florida!!! hells yeah. vacation... i can't wait. the trip is for my brother's wedding. imagine that. the bastard. never thought that was going to happen, especially at his age... and on top of it he's going to be a father. wow. is all i can say. have fun with that one. better him than me.

( i tear my heart open, i sew myself shut
my weakness is that i care too much )

my recent favorite songs (not in any particular order):

1. scars by papa roach
2. let me go by 3 doors down
3. going crazy by natalie
4. obsession by frankie j
5. disco inferno by 50 cent
6. bless the broken road by rascall flatts
7. do something by britney spears
8. since you been gone by kelly clarkson
9. over by lindsay lohan
10. shut up by simple plan
11. la la by ashlee simpson
12. sunday morning by maroon 5
13. how we do by the game
14. like toy soldiers by eminem
15. hope by twista